There’s plenty of time for that.
I felt tired. Actually I no ever did feel that I’d get tired. Somehow all the disappointments and pain and sadness it didn’t matter at all to me.
I was really happy and excited coz I know i’m going to be with the person I love without worrying about something and just spending time with each other.
I was happy because i’d be able to do happy things together with him without worrying about others eyeing us.
I already planned everything that we will do when that day comes and all I can think of is happiness. Every night it’s what I always think of before I close my eyes.
He gave me a reassuring smile that made me think he’s excited. But that was just me. I didn’t notice any excitement at all.
And then he said maybe we should go out next time. He should have just said it earlier. I hold on to the that thing for a week and then right in my face he said to me that we can do it next time. I was just disappointed. I hate it. And it seems like it was an easy thing for him. But to me it was not.
Ang babaw ko siguro. Pero hindi na mahalaga yun. Gusto ko lang ilabas kung ano yung nararamdaman ko. Kung gaano kasakit na paasahin ka sa isang bagay na matagal mong hinihintay na dumating pero hindi na matutuloy.
Ayoko ng umasa eh. Ang sakit. !@#$%^&^%$#@!
Pinilit ko na lang magisip ng ibang bagay, pero nawala talaga ako sa mood non. Pinilit kong wag umiyak sa harap niya. At sabihing okay lang ako kahit ang totoo ilang beses na akong nasasaktan sa mga planong hindi ko alam kung mangyayari pa o mananatiling plano na lang. :’((
Nung bata ako madalas sabihin sakin nung mga kakilala ko “Oh, tawa ka ng tawa mamaya iiyak ka.” Naiisip ko na lang, anong connect? Ganun ba talaga? Tapos nung lumaki na ako. Dun ko nalaman na medyo may katotohanan pala talaga yun. Yun nga lang hindi agad agad yung epekto minsan matagal bago ka malungkot ng sobra at minsan hindi lang malungkot yung tipong may kasama pang iyak. Iyak na tumatagal hanggang gabi. Hanggang sa ikaw na lang mismo makakarinig ng sarili mong kalungkutan.
It’s been a week since I’ve created this blog and yet I’ve got nothing to post. I don’t wanna copy others’ post so I’m trying not to look at my favorite blogs for a week now. Pero hindi ko kaya! HAHA.
Magiisip muna ako. HAHA.
001. I can’t promise to solve all of your problems but I can promise that you won’t have to face them alone.